"Radical" court decision

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I do feel confused; if I can have a child in my care one day, why not now? Why not my living children now? He's already decided that it would be safe for a future hypothetical child to be in my care one day in the future - so why not my actual children? I've contacted PAUSE; I don't like that I've been given hope around a child that doesn't exist, I don't want to just keep having children until I can eventually take one home; I want my daughter and son.

Also, the final order is being made on the 7th - this is when I run out of legal aid. But on the 24th there's a stage 1 hearing about re-opening past findings to remove me from the pool. My legal team have applied for more legal aid with regards to this but I'm so worried I won't get it.

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any advice welcomed please