My husband isn’t doing well. He’s got a new job and moved back in with his Mum. We just bought our first home together and only got married 5 weeks ago so he feels he’s lost everything. Him not being able to see my daughter is crippling him. He loves the bones of her. When he hears how she’s coping it breaks him. He’s coming up this weekend so we can talk more, it isn’t the same over text and phone calls xxx
Most sex offenders are mentally crippled and will never look at a indecent image again. For most, it is a mental illness. Looking at the images, they know it's wrong and hate themselves for it but are too weak to fight it. On the internet, they can be monsters, but in real life they'll never look at a child in a sexual way. I'm due to be charged on Friday for indecent images from 2014. You'll probably think I'm a monster, but I'm actually a good person. There's a difference between a criminal and bad person. Criminals can choose wether or not they are a good criminal or bad criminal. Words will never describe how sorry I am and how disgusted I am. I've lost half my family, my son, girlfriend and dog. I've never felt so alone in my entire life. My mental state has exploded. I'm constantly crying, constantly really anxious and living in complete fear with sleepless nights. Few weeks ago my home had so much life in it and now I have nothing but baby things, ex's things and memory triggers everywhere. My ex didn't take any belongings because social services just put her on a train far away from me to live with her dad. I was a great dad, went to every single pregnancy appointment, watched him come into the world and even cut his cord. 6 months ago I went through the most amazing thing ever (birth), and now I'm branded a outcost. I live with my mum and she is the only 1 I have left. I see my self as the product of my past. I was locked in a room with a pedo at 5 and molested by my brother when I was a teen. So yeah I'm mentally broken. Before my internet offending, I asked for mental help a lot. I was on the waiting list for 3 years. I'm in contact with stopitnow and have a mental counsellor. I don't use social networks and I don't look at porn. I quit drinking because all my mess was caused by drinking. Recently I hit rock bottom though because I am struggling. Today I stopped my self getting beer and will not be touching it again. My mum is emotionally drained from all this and it breaks my heart knowing she's watching her son basically kill him self. I won't be killing my self but I do always wonder what I'm fighting for? I have NOTHING to gain. All I have is my police interview where I have to tell them I was a monster. Oh and my trial for other offenses. I fear prison more than anything and wouldn't cope a single day. I suffer with server social anxiety and avoidant personality disorder. I struggle to use the bathroom just when family are here.. Imagine me in prison? I wouldn't cope. I am sorry for my actions and I have well and truly been punished. My heart is in pieces knowing I'll never see my son again because why should my ex and him put up with his? I did this. I waited 10 years to have my own baby and lose it within 7 months. I made this post because I don't want people to think we are all bad people. If anything, I'm a pathetic stupid idiot. I've always been protective over kids, supported others and drained my own happiness for others. I bring my self last in life and I love supporting people and seeing others smile. I have been using a mental health forum to support people that are struggling too. If you feel your loved one is a good person, you should at least hear him out. Chances are, he's gone from a man to a complete crying machine and shares a bed with a teddy. He most probably would of seeked help for his addiction if the country didn't witch hunt us the second they find out. Also, public humiliation by the courts I think is unacceptable and disgusting. Not because of the offender, but the families that didn't do anything wrong. The justice system is broken. The newspapers are bigger criminals than the offenders due to the unfairness they bring to the innocent families. That is all and thanks for reading if you bothered to.
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